Okay. So. This has been the best week of my goddamn life.
Me and Nea went on that vacation. It was fucking great.
We went down to Nar Shaddaa. Not the place I usually see, but the place where she grew up after the whole crash dealie and I got to meet some of the people she worked with, who knew her from her street-fighting days.
Goddamn there are some good people there. I’m happy they found her. They took good care of her.
Anyway then Nea took me to a very- private place for her, she said she hadn’t really gone back in a long time and it meant a lot- it meant more than a lot that she brought me there and why am I using dashes and shit like I’m talking I am writing this is dumb I should just erase that crap. Oh I’m using a pen fuck.
Anywya Anyway so we had our moment. I don’t really wanna record it all here cause it was private but we had our moment, and then we went and Nea got us a room at those big-as-fuck floating casinos. The real high-class ones. Someone on the inside owed her a favor and it was great.
We did a lot of stuff in that room, but not a lot of gambling. I’m not sure that’s good for business.
So we spent a few days just with each other, we went and saw the sites but mostly we just talked and held one another and joked and laughed and smiled and kissed and ate and drank and had a lot of fun.
I gave her my dogtags. I’ll get new ones.
We spent a lot of time sad too, cause we both know the shitstorm we’re both about to step into once I go. We can face anything together, we both know that, but apart? Well that’s gonna be the real test of our commitment to one another. And I know commitment. I can handle it, I think she can handle it too, but we won’t know until it happens, and that’s the scary part.
On to better memories though, Zentoyo decided to be way too fucking nice to me and organized a going-away party for my redeployment. That was way too kind of her. Like legit, I almost teared up when I got the e-mail. She’s such a good friend, and always has been one. I didn’t even mention her in this thing. That makes me feel bad for some reason.
But anyway she threw me a party, and a lotta guys I knew and plenty I didn’t or only sorta knew were there and everyone had a real good time and it was all super buenotasticbonne. And of course Z being Z went the extra mile and somehow got into contact with Nea and convinced her to dance for me. That alone would’ve made my jaw drop, but then she got Nea a slave outfit.
Holy FUCK I have the most beautiful girl in the
hoenstyl honestly the fact she’d even wear that for me - hell the fact she’d just dance in public for me - hell the fact she did either of those things alone would floor me, but she did BOTH. My god.
We are way too in love here, it is not good for our health.
But the rest of the party was good. Even some 7th made it to Nar Shaddaa to see me off. That was real nice of ‘em.
I love those guys, really I do. I’m proud of them. I think they can handle it on their own. They’ll still be here when I get back.
That leaves me a lot more comfortable than I’ve ever been.
God I normally don’t misspell anything but I misspelled three things already wow.
Anyway I’m really tired because Nea and I have been waking up and going back to sleep and waking up and going back to sleep and absolutely nothing else in between for the past several hours on the much-longer-than-necessary-because-fuck-you trip back to Voss.
I’m gonna say my goodbyes to Vy, then leave Nea with my tags, some holos, and anything else she wants.
And when I get back I’m gonna live up to every single promise I made her.
I love this woman so much.